everything.

i have a dependency
a horrible craving for the perfect remedy
confident safe secure
these things i could stand to endure
save me. i love this. stay away. i hate this.
i can’t decide which i’d rather miss.
i wake and need this i sleep and need this i dream and need this killing me, killing me
my blood is depleted
to the [...]

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what a pretty face
hardly meant to showcase
wondering what runs through his head
as he lays on his bedspread
staring through the ceiling
noticing his body doesn’t have any feeling
contemplating life in a casket
more like an empty waste basket
the bones will turn to ash
before he can even brush away the tear balancing on his eyelash… 

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i need the smell of long overgrown grass
i miss pressing my forehead onto the windows glass
to peer out and see myself out there somewhere else, someone else, anything
now i can peer numbly through a computer screen
staring at pictures of me and my friends when we were fourteen
when i wasn’t living off borrowed time.
now even your watch is flying at [...]

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